Alicia

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 00:51:11 GMT

wow someone which i wasnt my sisters posted a dumb comment on here....which i saw on our computer history which means it was my brother or his girl

u need to grow up stop reading my journal...im glad u find my life so interesting that u have to read this...probably cuz u have nothing better to do.

n just to let u know....that comment was pretty funny....im not with rob dumbasses....so why would some girl say leave him alone? n he doesnt even have a girl haha n if he did i wouldnt care.....ur dumb

n just to let u kno grace if it was u who posted that....rember ur living in my dads house which who practically supports u n my dumb brother...n if it wasnt for him u guys would probably be living in the ghetto where u came from....so just rember that before u get on OUR computer n post dumbass comments.

Sat, 07 May 2005 03:48:36 GMT

i havent updated this thing in awhile....nothing new has happened....

i go to the salon 6 days a week now....only day off is sunday....n i hope that changes cuz im goin insane even tho i love hanging out with kelli n stuffing our faces lol but some of the other ppl there are very annoying

tomorrow is my brothers fiances baby shower....i cant believe she is due this month...im gonna be an aunt that is so weird....

i feel like a loser....im sitting at home on a friday night....eating popcorn n watching a jessica simpson dvd all by myself....while my baby is out at a bar...

i think something is wrong with me...i sleep sooo much....i feel asleep today for a couple hours when i got home at like 5 30 woke up dusted our house...cleaned out my hopefully old car....n picked up my room

i seriously have like 5 pairs of shoes in my car....when i get a new one...i will never keep that much crap in it again....

i need another job sooo bad....i never thought finding one would be so hard....well i kinda knew that since i dont get done with the salon till 4 or 5 everyday

Adding to my horrible week.......

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 20:47:52 GMT

My phone is broke....in 2 peices to be exact....n i went to the sprint store today to get a new one since i have insurance on it....n it cost $50....n takes 3 to 5 business days.....i dont have $50.....n i dont have time to wait 3-5 days!!!! looks like i wont be having a phone for a while

what a week....

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 23:27:55 GMT

so this was probably the worst week ever.....

the other day i had school till 4 but didnt leave till 4 30 cuz i had to finish cutting n blowing out a maikans(sp?) hair....drove home...than drove to 10 n dequindre to pick my mom up from the hospital which i had just found out that day i had to do.....so i get there n find out she hasnt even had her surgry yet....i ws so angry n furstrated i started crying....waited for her to get down than drove her home...

im so glad the new girl kelly started at my work....seriously me n her all day just talk n goof off....n finally someone my age who likes to go out n stuff...yippie....haha n today she had a stalker foreigner guy come in the salon...n asked her to go to a barbque n if he could get his hair cut lol

today i learned spiral curls....n they turned out sweet....

ive been so stressed out this week....n without allison i wouldnt know what to do cuz she just listens to me cry....i <3 her haha she has a fat face!!!

i havent felt this hurt n confused in a long time....

my sis turned 23 on monday....she came in on got her hair done too the other day....i washed it...blew it out n strightened it....it looked hot

oh yea n i hate annoying ppl who need to grow up....get a life....

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 01:51:42 GMT

lets see.....

something is wrong with my eye...its like scatched n all red...looks like i smoked a lot of weed lol so yesterday i went to the doctors with my sister n mom...got some drops for it...which means now im a sexy bitch cuz i get to wear my glasses all day NOT!!! lol i feel soooo ugly right now its not funny....i look pale as hell...well to me i do....n i feel so out of shape n ugly espically when i wear my glasses....n since i have to wear them that means no goin out for alicia!!

also me n my lil sis went to the mall yesterday after the doctors...i had a lot of fun hangin out with her....us singing to music in the car...n laughin our asses of at ppl....saw someone at the mall...lol whos a joke...lol n my sis also bought me a yummy preztel!!

another thing that has been bothering me so much is that the fact that my bf has been with so many ppl....i cant get it out of my head...n i could be replaced like that cuz all he would have to do is go thru his phone n call one of those dumb hoes...ive also been thinking if hes been with so many girls...n good lookin ones why would he choose me to be serious with? i mean i guess i kind of feel special that after all those ppl he choose me....but than it bugs the hell out of me that when we do go out to the bar like everytime he see like 5 or more girls hes been with...or every girl hes talked to hes done stuff with!! i dunno ive had too much time to myself so ive been thinking way to much....

today my baby took me out to lunch :) to my fav resturant!! had some interesting convos.....realized some things about myself...i also realized that i need to change some things about myself right away or i could loose the one person that i truely care about n that means everything to me...i want things to work between us...today i was thinking seriously could spend the rest of my life with him....n i would be happy n satisfied...just when he looks at me i get butterflys in my stomach....u have no idea how much u mean to me!!

i also miss my mommy....im so used to seeing her all the time...n now i hardly ever...n shes living all alone now...expect for when my dad goes n stays with her sometimes but i could tell yesterday when we met her at the doctors she was so lonely....

on the other hand...i hate living so far from my baby...like 45 min....n the drive back n forth sucks....n its so weird to live in a house with my 2 sisters n brother...n my dad stays there sometims but hardly ever...

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 21:29:35 GMT

i hate how i like a certain person so much....yet i do such dumb shit to mess things up n i so upset n dispointed with myself that i even did what i did....i dont get it....n even when i do go out without him...i cant even get him out of my mind.....like on friday....met this really tan....blonde haired preppy guy who was fine as hell....n all i could think about was him.... i want things to work out between us....i want us to stop fighting about dumb shit....cuz we both get stupid jealous....i just want us to get along....because when im with him n things are good he makes me the happiest person ever.....

besides all that i moved all my stuff to my dads....i have way to many clothes....n put all my picture frames up n stuff....n changed some pics of me n jerm....n goin thru my pics made me miss rachel so much....all of our good times together....i was about to cry looking at them...

i also got my hair done this past week...i got low lights in it...i like it a lot...n everybody else seems to too....

went to tonic on st. patricks day with rob...it was overall a good time...

n watching all this mtv spring break stuff on tv makes me feel really pale...n want to go to cancun soooo bad

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 01:18:55 GMT

my life is pretty boring....im doin that apprenticeship at the hair salon.....i go there tuesday thru saturday like 7 hours a day....

tomorrow i have to go there at 11 for a class which sucks....

i went to tiki bobs last tuesday with rob n his friend chad....it was fun saw Kim there.....n like every other guy i knew.....

i moved into the house my dad bought....well he still has to move my bed n stuff there....i like it a lot...expect for my brother living there n his evil fiance....but besides that the house is really nice in the inside....

the past couple of days with rob havent been good....i know ive done things wrong...but im only human im not perfect...i want to be with him....i heart him so much.....hes all i think about every minute of the day...i wish he knew how much he really meant to me...in that i really do want to be with him n care about him a lot...its so hard with us tho cuz my parents dont want us together...so many ppl are against us being together....i get stressed out over...hes stressed out...than when we do actually see each other we are both in bad moods which cause us to fight....

on the other hand i want to go on vacation...somewhere warm...i wish me n rob could go somewhere together n just spend quality time together just me n him with no one around....

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 21:17:28 GMT

so i dont even kno where to begin this past week has been hell....

my mind is goin crazy....i dont kno what the hell to do anymore or what to think....

me n my boyfriend had an arugment things get blown out of proprotion....i was wasted...he was wasted...he kind of threatned me...i got scared went to the bathroom crying...than it all went down hill from there....now everyone is involved in our business....

i made the mistake of telling ppl....which i shouldnt have....but when u are drunk n histerical....u tend to call ppl n tell them...well it least i do....

so now my parents dont want me talking to rob...n they said last night they dont want anything to do with me....i have to talk to them tomorrow....i wish they would just actually listen to me....n be there for me....n support my decisions that i make n of all ppl i would think my mom would be the person to understand my situation to me it just seems like they want to control me...not really help me...

i feel like the whole thing is my fault n im making things even harder than it really is....

i wish i lived on my own n had a good job....than i could just leave everyone n not deal with any shit right now.....im goin crazy

i dont kno if i can handle much more of this....

i feel hurt....that rob did that....

i feel bad that i told ppl....

n now i feel completely alone....

i dunno i feel like its all my fault....n now i could be ruining his life....

i seriously wonder if things are ever goin to get better...

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 19:41:35 GMT

[ Current Mood ] upset
[ Current Music ] a playlist on robs comp
[ Current Taste ] cake
[ Current Make-Up] none
[ Current Hair ] down
[ Current Annoyance ] my boyfriend
[ Current Smell ] nothing
[ Current Favorite Artist ] i dont really have one
[ Current Desktop Picture ]this isnt my comp....but he has a pic of the ocean
[ Current Favorite Group ] dont really have one
[ Current Book you're reading ] not reading one lol
[ Current CD in CD Player] mix
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] pink...but they are chipped n need to be done again
[ Current Refreshment ] coke
[ Current Worry ] if im goin to get a job at a hair salon....where im gonna live...my dumb boyfriend....i have lots

LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] rob
[ You Talked to ] rach
[ You Hugged ] rob
[ You Instant messaged ] clint
[ You Yelled At ] rob
[ You Kissed ] robert

FAVORITE...
[ Food ] chicken
[ Drink ] juice
[ Color ] pink
[ Album ] i like mixs
[ Shoes ] my white steve maddens...but they are retired now....
[ Candy ] haha i have many
[ Animal ] little dogs
[ TV Show ] newlyweds
[ Song ] 112 u already know
[ Vegetable ] cucumbers
[ Fruit ] not sure

ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] yeah
[ Open-minded ] i think so...but rob would say otherwise
[ Arrogant ] nope, i dont think so
[ Insecure ] yeah, more than i admit to
[ Interesting ] probably
[ Random ] kinda
[ Hungry ] not really
[ Friendly ] yeah
[ Smart ] i think so
[ Moody ] yea kinda
[ Childish ] yeah
[ Independent] not right now
[ Hard working ] when i want to
[ Organized ] yea
[ Emotionally Stable ] for the most part
[ Difficult ] depends
[ Attractive ] i think a little....
[ Bored Easily ] usually
[ Messy ] no not really
[ Thirsty ] no
[ Responsible ] i think so
[ Obsessed ] umm no...
[ Angry ] yes....
[ Sad ] i would say hurt....
[ Happy ] for the most part...but right now things are rough
[ Hyper ] not today
[ Trusting) i think so
[ Talkative ] yea when i want to be

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] no one
[ Slap] lol, no comment
[ Get Really Wasted With ] i would say rob...but he gets to moody when hes drunk...so i say rach plus i havent seen her in forever n we always havae good times together when we are drunk!!
[ Look Like] no one

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] rach, rob, n my dad hes pretty funny...
[makes you smile] rob n rach
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] ???
[who do you have a crush on?] i dont have a crush...i have a boyfriend
[has a crush on u?]....
[is easiest to talk to] rob n rach

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] no lol
[save aol/aim conversations] sometimes
[Wish u were a member of the opposite sex] sometimes i do
[cried because of someone saying something to you]yeah

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] haha no
[been rejected] i dont rember anyone really rejecting me....
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] haha no comment
[been cheated on] probably i seem to make guys cheat on me....
[done something you regret] yeah who hasnt

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes] no
[could u live without the computer?] hell no
[color ur hair] yes i get it highlighted
[ever get off the dang computer] yes
[habla espanol] no
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 199
[drink alchohol?] guilty as charged
[like watching sunrises or sunset] i like sunsets...im not up early enough to see the sun rise
[what hurts the most?} having the people u trust n care about do things to hurt u....or having the feeling that no one really truely cares about u...

-N U M B E R-
of times I have had my heart broken: once
of guys I have kissed?: haha im not answering this one....its pretty high up there...
of girls I have kissed?: 2 or 3 i dont rember...
of things in my past that I regret?: i dont keep count

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 05:08:54 GMT

so sometimes i wonder if all the trying... pain....crying...n loneliness is all worth it...

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 01:50:22 GMT

lets so didnt really do anything this past week....went to the movies with rob n his friend n his friends girl...saw wedding date...

started goin to a therapist....which i have to see every week....she basically told me i'm very lonely n spend too much time by myself...which is very true....i spend almost everyday all day by myself...until i hangout with rob at night...or sit at his house until he comes home...wow i cant believe this is my life...its pretty pathetic....i mean in high school i always had so much to do....cheerleading...dance...work...a boyfriend...lots of friends...always goin out...than i didnt have time to sleep...now i sleep to much

its sad to say that i really wish i would have made better choices of friends....ppl that would be my friends no matter what...so i guess this is the price i have to pay for my bad choices...n always letting ppl walk all over me...

i also have to go see a doctor...to see if im depressed..

i really regret not goin to school this year....i just felt like i needed such a break after high school....n working my ass off....

i really want a job right now too....

havent gone out it feels like in forever....well i havent been to the bar in forever...well tuesday rob went to tikis without me...just with his friends...n wednesday i hungout out at home...went to surprise rob where he said he was playn bball...but to my surprise he wasnt there!! so i drove to his house...n he was there...he lied to me...i dont kno what he was doin...he said he was getting ready to go to the club...which i think was a lie...i think he was hangin out with someone...but he says he wasnt...all i kno if i catch him cheating on me...ill kill him! n i think more than anything i will be soo hurt...

i really hate all this snow...today i went grocery shopping...n it was such a workout getting all the groceries to robs door....than up his stairs...geez im tired

than i been doin loads of laundry...n picked up his room n vacumed...DAMN im a good girlfriend...

ive been working out a lot lately....it kinda helps me feel better...n hopefully ill get into shape

my dad bought a 5 bedroom house....which i will probably be moving into with my 2 sisters n brother n his fiance...n there soon to be baby

i might be getting a job at antoninos hair salon...n learning how to cut hair n everything...i really hope i get it....

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 02:06:13 GMT

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Mon, 07 Feb 2005 00:39:51 GMT

lets see....friday went to canada with allison.....good times...n learned u should never wear a skirt to the casino or to canada period lol n pink pussy is good!

applied to the tanning place i go too...i need a job so bad!

my arm hurts right now so bad....it feels like i have growing pains...fuck them!

i wish i could just tell ppl things to vent...not for them to tell me what to do....im my own person i will make my own decisions even if in the long run they are bad....i will still learn from them....so i wish ppl would just support whatever decision i make

valentines day is coming up....a holiday im not really a fan of but oh well

so i think i want to take summer classes...since i didnt go to school all this year....i just need to figure out what i want to do...that damn preschool job shattered my thoughts of becoming a teacher but i think cosmo would still b good it just doesnt have a lot of money in it... i wish i would have gone to school this semester tho at least it would have kept me busy n i miss school....

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 00:19:04 GMT

so i just got back from working out....i didnt work out that long today cuz there was a bunch of teenage boys watching me....it made me feel kinda uncomfortable so i just ran on the tredmill for a little than did some sit ups than left...

i still have this dumb cold that ive had for a couple of days but at least i dont have a soar throat anymore...i think the medicine i got from the doctor helped a lot

today was fun tho me n rob hungout all day....i woke up at 10 n just sat around n waited for his lazy ass to get up than we got ready n went to the movies n saw in good company...it was a good movie...than we got BK afterwards n went tanning n stuff

tonight i think we are goin out...even tho im kinda exhausted...

last night was the new newlyweds! i <3 that show n the new \ashlee simpson show...rob also made me dinner <3 i really <3 my boyfriend n im so thankful to have him....even tho he does put up with a lot of my whinning n complaining right now

i really dont have anything else to write....my life is pretty boring but i will update more when i have more to write :)

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 00:33:10 GMT

*i hate all this stupid snow so much!!

*last night went to tiki bobs with rob n his friend chad....n met his other friends there...his friends are crazy n all we did was laugh so hard :) i had a really good time

*today i was sick again...i dont kno whats wrong with me....i was just throwing up all day....i just ate some pizza n the throwing up feeling is gone so thats good again i <3 rob so much for taking care of me...n holding back my hair....

*on the other hand i'm falling in love....i'm scared...but its the best feeling in the world :) i love being in his arms...i love every min with him....i love how even if we get into a fight n i hate him all i wanna still do is kiss him....he makes me so happy :)n right now i wouldnt kno what to do without him!! ahhhhhh im glad i'm actually letting my guard down....n taking a chance!

*n a big thanx to mindy for introducing us....this time u did a good job lol :)

well i think im gonna go lay back down n rest till my baby gets home from work

<3

randoms......

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 17:40:17 GMT

*i <3 my boyfriend

*i need to find a job....cuz i sit around all day n do nothing....which is leading to me getting very out of shape n dieing of boredem(sp?)

*i want to go to canada!!!

*i hate this dumb cold weather!!

*saw coach carter the other day....good movie

*i love how it is like 10 degrees outside yet me n my boyfriend like to get icecream every night! haha

*soon i will be living in westbloomfield....until our house in farmington is done being built! i cant wait to have all my clothes at my access :)

*i love cuddling wiht rob....i LOVE having a boyfriend :)

*went to tiki bobs last friday with mindy...rach was home for the weekend n met us there...good times...

*got silly drunk saturday night...n me n mindy were part of an oreo cookie haha

*ive also never watched so many movies...n tv n my life!! i dont kno if that is a good or bad thing

i think im gonna get off my lazy ass n go to my sisters n see what they are doin...yay! n get my pilates dvd so my lazy ass has something to do when i just sit at robs...

I HATE BEING SICK!!!

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 02:16:20 GMT

so last night i started throwing up.....n i was throwing up all day today...but now i feel fine i even ate a footlong sub from subway n i didnt throw up!! :) i <3 rob for taking care of me!

this past weekend was good got to hangout with mindy saturday n sunday! got her to drink jager! haha good times good times...haha PUSSY!!

On the other hand things with my parents arent good...my perfect life seems to be falling apart...n i seem to never handle it very well

im getting so stressed out with everything that i just cant take it anymore....i need a job...money....a new car.....n a vacation

i really need to get away for awhile.....away from my parents n all their problems..

well ill update more later

<3

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 18:47:23 GMT

so last night i realized i am a real ass...n i am very selfish which is probably from getting everything i wanted growing up n still getting what i want now well wiht the parents....n usually with guys

but now i have a guy who wont give me everything i want n everything cant go my way....n i act like the sturborn ass that am n i have always been with other guys i have dated cuz i didnt really truely care about them n if they stoped talkn to me cuz of it i didnt care at all cuz that was me.....n my way of pushing ppl away n not letting myself get close to them n them to me....

so now i have to get out of that mode real fast or else im not gonna have a boyfriend...well actually after last night i dont kno if i still have one :(

besides last night everything has been great went shopping with mindy, julie, n lisa yesterday i luv just hangin with girls sometimes....

ive spent like every night at robs lately.....n last night sleeping in my own bed by myself was so weird n i didnt like it AT ALL i miss waking up to him cuddling me...

im also not working at hollister anymore....n i dont want to be living off my daddys money anymore so i need to go find a job....

well i have to go clean....yes clean haha

<3

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 04:54:54 GMT

so i havent written in this thing in so long......

rach moved to florida....its so sad cuz im used to her always being around n i was supposed to move with her n i didnt :(

but good news after today i am no longer single :) yes u heard me right...im gonna give up being a player haha n be n a serious relationship with a guy that i like a lot n i can never stop thinking about :) me n him have been hangin out like every day for 2 weeks n i love every min of it...besides the little arugments we get in cuz we are both stubburn lol im glad we decided to be offical now i can tell ppl hes my hottie! haha i havent had a REAL relationship in awhile tho so im kinda scared....

today me n mindy went out to eat at macaroni grill it was soooo good we ate so much food.....i still feel stuffed

last night me n her went to tiki bobs but there was way too many ppl so we went over to tonic

a guy at the club started yellin that i was from laguana beach....hes like its kristen! haha that was a little embrassing

went shopping yesterday with mindy......we've been shopping like everyday this past week haha we went to the outdoor mall in rochester yesterday i got a shirt from abercrombie n a jacket from gap the other day i got a shirt from bebe n a skirt from forever 21

i cant wait for new years i hope i have fun

Tryin to take my mind of things........

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 03:58:51 GMT

First best friend: rachel boling
First car: 95 acclaim
First real kiss: robbie gutman
First screen name: ugh i dont rember....
First funeral: my dads dad
First pets: fish
First piercing: ears
First credit card: does a debit card count?
First musician you remember hearing in your house: i dont rember
Last cigarette: like 3 yrs ago
Last car ride: i dunno
Last good cry: probably a couple days ago....i seem to cry a lot lately
Last library book checked out: i dunno i check out a lot
Last movie seen: cabin fever...grosses movie ever!
Last phone call: rach
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: old navy flip flops
Last CD played: after the sunset soundtrack
Last item bought: ugh i buy a lot but probably von dutch hat
Last annoyance: i have a lot
Last disappointment: theres a lot
Last time wanting to die: umm dunno
Last shirt worn: blue off the shoulder hollister t shirt n white tank underneath
Last website visited: this one
Last word you said: ordered food at taco bell
Last song you sang: i dunno
What is in your CD player? rascal flatts
What color socks are you wearing? im not wearing any...i dont really like them
What Color underwear are you wearing? haha monkey ones
What's under your bed?: ugh lots of shit....papers, pictures,magazines
What time did you wake up?: depends on when i work

5 things you are wearing right now
1. t shirt
2. hoodie
3. bra
4. jeans
5. underwear

3 people that never fail to cheer you up
1. mindy
2. rach
3. derek...there are lots
3 things you can't live without
1. friends
2. clubs
3. n my cell phone
5 things you love
1. all my friends
2. dancing
3. tanning
4. money
5. alcohol(haha)
--This or That--
Older or Younger: older
Romantic or Horndog: romantic
Smart or Stupid: smart
Fat or Skinny:not to skinny not to fat
Punk or Preppy: i dont really like punk
The Big Picture or the Little Things: big picture
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present: flowers
Mixtape or Burned CD: burned cd
Love or Lust: love
Emotional or Just Not: emotional
Sincere or Jokester: both
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet: hott n sweet ;)
Sexy or Just "cute": both
Arse or Abs: abs
Hair or Hands: hair
Dimples or Eyes: eyes
Biceps or Calves/Thighs: all
Countrygirl or Citygirl: city
Date alone or With Friends: both
Would you ever date a guy for his money?: no but money helps make things easier
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?: no
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?: no
Do looks matter?: yes at a first glance but not after time
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?: yea
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?: lol i try
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?: no my friends are all cuties
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be): I would be
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?: probably breast implants
Do you have a completely irrational fear? umm i dunno
Are you a pyromaniac? no i dont like fire
Do you have too many love interests? haha i fall in love every day j/p
Do you know anyone famous? no unfortunatly
Describe your bed? a twin with a leopard zebra comforter n lots of pillows
Spontaneous or plan? spontaneous
Do you know how to play poker? no
What do you carry with you at all times? purse, wallet, license, lip stick, lip gloss, keys, cell phone
What do you miss most about being little? not having to worry about anything n getting anything i wanted
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? it's improving
Do transient, homeless, or starving people bother you? no not really just when they wont leave u alone
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? yea
Do you spend more time with your boyfriend or your friends?: friends i dont have a boyfriend
What's one thing you wish you could do but can't? not let so many things bother me n get really stressed out
What is your ideal wedding location? doesn't matter as long as i am with the man of my dreams
Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? none i can play the violin....n i dont want to play anything else
Favorite fabric? i like all...im obsessed with clothes
Something you love and hate? love tanning..hate working
What's the one language you want to learn? more french
What do you order at a bar? mostly anything but beer...sweet tart drinks are the shit tho
Do you have tattoos? no i want one tho
Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery any kind if confronted? yup
Do you drive stick? nope
What's one trait you hate in a person? liars
What kind of watch do you wear? i dont
Most frivolous purchase? i dunno
Do you consider yourself materialistic? um....a lot of ppl think i am...so yea i guess so
What do you cook the best? haha i dont cook.....but probably brownies....or cookies right alicia!!

Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? a lil of both depends on with what
What kind of books do you like to read? mostly anything
If you won the lottery, what would you do? buy a car....a house....pay for school....go shopping....
What's one thing you're a sore loser at? ugh i dunno
If you don't like a person, how do you show it? ignore them....walk away.....or push them away haha....or tell them
Do you cry in front of friends? yes
What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? um.....people think im stuck up n snotty....n probably wild n crazy haha o n maybe shy
What's one thing you like to do alone? read...take a bath i dunno
Are you a giver or a taker? umm depends on what ur giving hehe
How many drinks before you're tipsy? ugh i dunno lol
Favorite communication method? in person

my thoughts.....

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 05:35:37 GMT

*i feel like my mind is so messed up right now....im about to have a major breakdown...

*i also feel like nothing in my life right now can go right....forinstance last night...tried to have a good time with the girls at tonic...but no that had to get ruined by a girl that i dont even kno why she fucking hates me!!! but i still had some fun n it was funny having this guy that i always seen at jimmys (in the kitchen)n he is also the manager at sevin tell me his gf thinks im cute n stuff lol o yea we were also on the radio too

*i went shopping with my dad the other day n got a new jacket

*stayed the night at my sisters last night i <3 hangin out with her

*o yea n when me n mindy went to eat at kerbys yesterday our waitress said i looked like mary kate n a lot of ppl say that....n i really dont think so!

*i only work 3 days this week....i need a new job i think im gonna go look tomorrow...

*i got a Von Dutch hat from the mall the other day

*x mas is soon....n im soooo broke! n i still have to pay a fucking ticket!!

*i cant wait to c u in 2 weeks..im gonna be so happy hangin out with u again i miss u so much n we always have lots of fun together!!

<3

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 01:16:55 GMT

ok so today i went to work n worked for 4 hours....its so BORING THERE...we have new managers they seem nice but i dunno

so yesterday me n mindy walked around somerset for like 4 hours...tried on rings from tiffanys....i want one sooo bad!!

than i hungout with jeremy n went out to dinner n he got me donuts!!

so im offically hating guys wiht a passion im sick of them...right now im sick of everything....i really hate how my life is right now..nothing seems to make me happy...

maybe a girls night.....i wish they could go back to how they were b4...me n mindy clubn, dancing, not worrying about fucking guys, n me actn crazy n wild....i miss those times because we havent had one of those in awhile....

thinking back on it i was so happy b4 i met jimmy...n i loved just hangin otu with the girls...those are timez ill never forget...me n mindy falling over at tiki bobs....getting kicked out....running from guys....i need one of those days again......i need to be happy again cuz i cant stand being like this...i so need a vacation to get away from things

so im not talkn to jimmy anymore....if he really liked me like he says he would make time for me but he doesnt...i dont care if i have to pay fucking $10 to get into sevin....it will be interesting to c him there if i go there but maybe he'll realize that hes losing a great girl....n i liked how he was when i first met him but i guess over time u see how someone really is...

i cant wait till i meet my perfect guy.....:( but until than im single

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 19:29:31 GMT

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

this is how i feel right now...i hate when ppl assume things about me say things about me n they really dont kno anything about me......yea i hangout with a lot of guys n talk to a lots of guys but they are all just friends so ppl who like to call me a hoe n a slut cuz u always see me with guys yea u can stop because u dont even kno me!

yea today my brother told my mom i was a hoe....he says i dress like one...n he was snooping thru my room n found a letter from derek so i had my dad give me a talk.....than he tells my mom o alicia's boyfriend has a kid!!! WTF shut ur mouth do u want to give my mom a heartattack luckily she just blew it off n my dad wasnt home..i really hate him sometimes he always gets into my business when he doesnt even kno anything!!!!

so yesterday i worked 1-7 @hollister which sucked ass the little girls there have like competitions to c who can get the most #'s n stuff im like what the hell? i hate those girls they are so fake!! i also stubbed my foot in the door

i also bought a new nose ring yesterday

o yea n my mom gave me $20 n i lost it so she had to give me another $20..im so broke n im losing my mind...

so i need a new job so i can move out!!! or else im moving to florida!! i cant stay at my house i get blamed for every little thing n my brother annoys the hell out of me...

today i have to go pick up my new phone from sprint n return some library books...n probably go to the mall cuz i have nothing else to do...

im also not calln a certian someone until they call me....i wanna c how much they really like me...so this should b interesting....

i feel like i havent seen mindy in forever!!!! even tho its just been a week lol

i havent seen rachel in forever either!

i want to go to birmingham i havent been there since summer n i miss it....i miss the summer so much!! :(

well im gonna go eat n get ready....

<3

AHHHHHHH

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 15:22:22 GMT

so i didnt work all last week due to the fact that i didnt have a car!!

i seem to have really bad luck lately...

tuesday night i went to tiki bobs with allison it was alright but way too many ppl n i couldnt breathe! so we left early than at like 4 in the morning i woke up n i was throwing up rest of the night n part of the day! i felt soooo shitty my whole body ached

i had already made plans with ppl to go to canada n i was feeling a little better n i hadnt thrown up in a couple hours so i decided to go...allison came n picked me up the ride there was an adventure since it was so bad out her car slide on the highway n she couldnt see the lanes lol

anyways we ate dinner at peppers a guy invited us to his hotel room to stay the night lol it was so cold out n rainy that we didnt even really go to any clubs cuz the lines were long n i was already sick n we were supposed to meet up with some of my friends but they were to drunk to give us fucking directions...n i love running down the streets of canada in high heels n the freezing cold!! so we decided to just go home n call it an early night!

oh yea i got my hair cut n dyed on monday...is short again...

i hung out with mindy like all last week....we were being bums n both not goin to work lol

i hope this weekend will be fun.....cuz i work all next week which sucks

i work friday 1-7 im gonna die!!!! i cant stand working for 6 hours at hollister i like working during the day cuz all me n this girl emily do is talk n make fun of the little slutty ass high school girls who like to flirt with our manager n any guy! n like to steal all the clothes!! n all of the managers are quitting....that place is gonna suck i wanna quit so bad but i need to find a new job first!

i need some new winter clothes!!

n i want a little purse from coach...the one like urs mindy!!!

i miss my boy :(

<3

OH YEA HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! i have to go take a shower now n get ready to go to my aunts house with my mom n sisters...my daddys up north right now :(

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 17:42:25 GMT

i hate this sad depressed mood i'm in......